Today has been a b*tch

[ecstasy]

i'll always love my ex...

[sadistik]

i'll always love my ex...

did your ex betray you to go screw around with dozens of other guys after telling you she wants to marry you, dragging you to live somewhere you don't really know, and cause you to go completely broke?? mine did.. I'd love to get some sort of revenge on her.. but my paranoia of getting caught doing anything prevents me from doing anything.. so.. nothing will be done The one good thing.. Is I know I cant expierience anything worse.. I've been through the worst thing I can go through, and survived.. though my innocence & trust in ppl got completely sodomized in the process

[Crazyme99]

wow meh way to bump an old topic i almost forgot jezz guys thanks for making me remeber (jk)

Sad (used to be ohmy forget what his new name is)

time does heal all but how much time to we have left???

[sadistik]

Sad (used to be ohmy forget what his new name is)

time does heal all but how much time to we have left???

funny you'd ask me that question.. I don't see myself living 5 years from now, not because I'm suicidal or anything.. I'm broke, not too healthy because i'm broke, and I have incredibly crappy luck.. It's not that I want to die, (although for a while I did want to) I'm passive toward the idea.. I've learned a lot from my little dramatic expierience, and to me life's not really worth much.. however being somewhat religious.. I believe there's a hell, and suicide=hell.. so that's definately not worth it.. so there's my delimna(sp)

"Time heals all" to me is just something ppl say to make themselves feel better.. like "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" or a similar saying.. do you see a bunch of "hot chicks" going around spewing that?? it's for "ugly" people to say so they feel worth a damn.. because "ugly" ppl get so much crap for stuff way beyond their control (like true racism.. the ppl cant help how they're born).. Of course the extreme opposite is happening also.. All these pretty young girls read shiz in magazines that make them think there's stuff wrong about them, telling completely skinny girls they're not skinny enough (I've actually witnessed this happening with my friend's step sister).. Society in general is becoming an awful thing.. Nobody's good enough for anything, except the wealthy.. That's my 7 cents on it..

If you are happy.. I'm glad, I'm not trying to bring anyone down, I'm just saying what's been a bit of what's contributed to my downfall.. and my view on "healing": healing is something you have to simply think your way through.. When you think "OMG I'll never recover" It will take longer than someone who thinks "I'm gonna get through this and move on"..y father used to always tell me attitude plays a big part on how things go in your life" and of course being a kid who thought his dad was a big dork.. I'd just laugh it off basically.. but I've come to find he's absolutely right..

The reason I write so much on stuff like this is because being 21, I know how i used to think when I was in school.. and I know most kids have the same way of thinking.. you cant really grasp what parents or adults tell you because you havn't expierienced it yourselves.. I'm hoping that maybe my message can get into someone's head, and maybe sort of warn them of what's to probibly come, so they can handle it well.. I know most guys 15-18, in hs or even jr. high, claim to be men.. especially when 18 hits.. being of a certain age doesn't mean sh*t.. like the age just magically makes you a man.. it makes you an adult, but doesn't mean you'll act like one.. If you've never expierienced being COMPLETELY on your own for at least half a year (no help from mommy and daddy).. you're not a complete man in my opinion.. but that is why I warn the youth.. so they don't make similar mistakes that I feel completely ruined my life.. All I can say now is GL..

[Crazyme99]

The reason I write so much on stuff like this is because being 21, I know how i used to think when I was in school.. and I know most kids have the same way of thinking.. you cant really grasp what parents or adults tell you because you havn't expierienced it yourselves.. I'm hoping that maybe my message can get into someone's head, and maybe sort of warn them of what's to probibly come, so they can handle it well.. I know most guys 15-18, in hs or even jr. high, claim to be men.. especially when 18 hits.. being of a certain age doesn't mean sh*t.. If you've never expierienced being COMPLETELY on your own for at least half a year (no help from mommy and daddy).. you're not a complete man in my opinion.. but that is why I warn the youth.. so they don't make similar mistakes that I feel completely ruined my life.. All I can say now is GL..

you just inspired me to listen to my parent because im the same way. almost behind on my projects because im playing to much video games . Im gunna to study hard and sh*t till christmas and then chillax

[sadistik]

you just inspired me to listen to my parent because im the same way. almost behind on my projects because im playing to much video games . Im gunna to study hard and sh*t till christmas and then chillax

That's great to hear.. (again I understand from being there a few years ago) kids think parents dont know what they're talking about because they're so much older.. and times have changed.. Times have changed, in the style/cool/technological perspective as they do constantly, but human nature usually stays the same.. another thing my father told me (which I definately thought was bull) "I know you better than you know yourself" after the breakup with my ex.. he told me he wasn't suprised and he told me how her process of thinking was.. which sounded mysteriously dead on.. "She was sick and I was her medicine to make her feel better" a lot of times when ppl on meds feel better they stop taking their medicine because they think they're ok permanently.. anyway.. with the "him knowing me better than I do" I realized he was right when I thought to myself.. That's really f-d up. If he knew This was going on.. why didn't he try to tell me or warn me?? Then I realized.. He knew I wouldn't take him seriously.. It would've just caused problems between him and I because I would think he's just against my gf.. who at the time I thought I could not possibly live without..

Another thing.. Most children don't know their parents as people, just as mom & dad.. I've figured out I get my spitefullness & rage from my mother of all ppl.. and she does it the same way.. kinda hard-to-notice hints.. it's wierd what you learn about the world once you're out in it alone.. my entire perspective on life has changed at least 5 times this last year.. It's rediculous..

[SpAzErMaN]

What an epic Post!

[sadistik]

What an epic Post!

lmfao.. i love the word epic!!

[ompster]

lol u wanna know a good way of gettin over a girl? the best advice that my best mate gave me.. just imagine her takin a dump or mackin on your best friend. Yeh.. discuting isn't she! lol

[Nightma12]

ugh

I dont think that would work with me tbh

[medici]

ugh

I dont think that would work with me tbh

fetishes?

[Nightma12]

no... lol

I would just think "well thats not the real her" lol

[Crazyme99]

can we dump this topic
(sheesh)
Old memerioriers thankx guys

[sadistik]

Old memerioriers thankx guys

Idk if ur serious or not.. but the more you face these "old memories" the more immune you grow to them

[Grimes [3rd ID]]

Old memerioriers thankx guys

Idk if ur serious or not.. but the more you face these "old memories" the more immune you grow to them

Exactly. I was afraid of the dark.. pfft who wasnt? I faced it one night to not look foolish infront of a friend at a sleep over, and from there I was fine. Yeah I admitted it, its true. If you were never afraid of the dark, your just a liar. Yes, face your fears.